Special Episode – I Went Back to My Past Yesterday For One Hour

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Here is the transcript to today’s episode:

Speaker 1: (00:00)
I’m guessing it took about 15 or 20 minutes. Um, but once it happened, it was unbelievable. I’m gonna share with you right now.

Speaker 1: (00:28)
Hey there, how are you? Dr. Dave, welcome back to Microdose U I really appreciate you and I have an incredible story for you today. So, I’ve talked to you in the past about, um, going to a, um, a float spa, a sensory deprivation, um, soak in a, in a, um, in a body of water that you just float in complete darkness. And I went the other day and my experience there was unlike any other that I’ve ever had. And I want to explain this to you. I wanna describe the whole thing to you right now. So, um, you know, a short time ago, I, I, I, I showed you, I, I, I explained to you exactly what a, a sensory deprivation float tank is. Um, and I went there yesterday and, um, before going about two hours in advance, I consumed, what was it? So it was not very much, but it was, let’s say, um, I took a bite of a piece of chocolate.

Speaker 1: (01:27)
So it was probably about 0.3, 0.4 grams of, um, magic mushrooms in that piece of chocolate, roughly 0.3, 0.4. Um, and then on top of that, I had, um, about, what was it? It was about, um, 15, 18 milligrams of cannabis. Um, seems to me from my past experience is like a, just a, like a perfect combination. So, um, went into the float spa, the float tank, and this time I did it a little bit differently. So in the past, what I’ve done is I’ve, um, kept some starlight on the ceiling, which has a really cool effect. It just looks like you’re in space, cuz the stars are kind of shining down on you. And I also have listened to music in the past, but this time, and, um, I give credit to somebody that’s, that was listening. Um, they called me out on this a short time ago.

Speaker 1: (02:19)
I told them that I listened to music and I, I have stars on the ceiling. They say, well, that’s not actually, that’s not actually complete sensory deprivation because you’re, you’re using two of your senses right there, uh, hearing and vision. And so I said, you know something, you are right. Next time I go, I’m gonna turn everything off. It’s gonna be, I’m gonna float in complete darkness, complete darkness. There’s not one iota of light anywhere. And I did this. And, um, the result was pretty darn incredible. So, if I could describe this, um, I’m floating and, and I didn’t, of course, I’m not looking at a clock. I don’t have my watch on, and the time is totally just meaningless when you’re floating in a, in a float tank. But, um, if I could just guess, I would say the first 10 minutes or so I’m floating.

Speaker 1: (03:07)
It’s very blissful. It’s very nice. It’s comfortable, but, but nothing’s really happening yet. But it’s, it’s, it’s still great. But then I think probably after about 10, or, and this is a one hour float by the way. Uh, they time it, you don’t have to worry about the time, um, when it’s over the, the light comes on and then your session is over. Um, but I would say roughly at about the 10 to 15 minute point, I started going back in time and I was reliving kind of like a lot of scenes and a lot of things from my childhood. Now, let me go back for a second, because, um, since I’ve experienced this, um, uh, depression and anxiety and, and all the other things that have come along with it that kind of really messed with my life over the past several years, um, I, I, I started believing that my childhood was, was not good.

Speaker 1: (04:05)
It was not happy. Um, a lot of things were just very weird in my childhood. I just kind of, I kind of just got by. But, but, um, I felt pretty strongly about this until yesterday when I floated and I actually went back to my childhood. And I noticed that, and I mainly went back to, uh, uh, when I was about roughly in the 9, 10, 11, 12 year range. Um, I could vividly feel like where I was. And I, I, and, and that’s what I was experiencing, and I will share with you that, um, I was happy back then. I felt very, very happy. And I was, um, I remember being in a, and I, I re-experienced this again. I was in a, um, a big snowstorm, um, in 1966 that would’ve put me at 11 years old and playing with my friends and everything about it did feel happy.

Speaker 1: (05:04)
So, um, and I’ve talked about this in the past, and it’s, it’s very still very hard for me to explain. And I can’t really put this into words, but I don’t think the way that we see time as human beings, like it’s linear. In other words, like right now, I’m a certain age. Last year I was a certain age, go back in time. Um, I, I had a very strong feeling during this session. Again, that time is the way we see it is not really correct. It’s not really what’s happening, but we are really on a, um, I don’t think this is the right word, but kind of bear with me . But, uh, we’re kind of on a continuum and, and like, but everything is, everything’s really happening and has happened already. And we’re just experiencing one part, like right now where I am in, I’m in Salt Lake Lake City recording this, and, um, it’s, uh, a certain date and I feel that this is the present.

Speaker 1: (06:04)
But at the same time, I do believe now that everything is taking place together. And also my 10 year old self is experiencing life as well, but it’s just in a different part of the timeline. And I, I can’t really get to that right now, at least in my mind. I can’t get to that right now. But in the float spot, in the float tank, uh, when I was deprived of, of my sense, my senses, and I was floating in space and I was enhanced by a little bit of plant medicine, I actually was taken back there. And it was not just like a thought or a dream, but it was like very, very real and very, very vivid. And I was actually there, and I was, I can tell you firsthand that my childhood, um, up to a certain point was not bad at all.

Speaker 1: (06:54)
In fact, it was, it was, it was kind of fun. It was kind of normal. It was kind of good. Now, of course, there are some good and bad things that happen in our lives. And I mean, everything can’t be total bliss every single second of every single day. But for the most part, I was wrong. Things in my childhood appeared to be really good. And even when I thought, like around seventh or eighth grade, um, and ninth grade and into high school when things really started kind of getting bad for me, um, they really weren’t that bad. That’s what I experienced in the, in the float tank when all my senses were deprived of me and I was just basically floating. That’s what I, that’s what I, um, I felt that, that my life was good. Now, now, I didn’t really get there. I didn’t get there in this session yesterday, but, um, I think my life started becoming crazier.

Speaker 1: (07:54)
And I’m gonna try to get there at a future visit. But, um, around the time I was probably, um, getting into dental school, going to dental school, I think I still feel in my heart, that was a time that was not really good for me because just I was getting into something that eventually wouldn’t turn out to be like a, um, a a a love and a passion for this. So I think it was, that was getting pretty bad then. But, um, again, if I could take you back to the way I felt in this float tank, um, I was there just floating in space, basically reliving or, or, or joining rejoining, maybe that’s a better word. I’m not sure. My, my youth and, oh God, some of the visions I had just going over to my friend’s house and, and watching Batman on tv, on his color tv, he was like one of the first people, probably the first person, his name’s Mark, an old friend of mine, um, the first person I ever know that had, that had color tv.

Speaker 1: (08:55)
And we would go over to his house and watch Batman when it came on. Um, in the evening, I’m not even sure what day of the week it came on, but that was like a really big thing to watch Batman in color. But, um, as I was reliving this whole thing, um, I felt really good about my life. So where did it go bad? I wanna say, I wanna say now without going back in the flow tank, which I will revisit this, but I wanna say it went bad, probably more in, um, in dental school. And then, um, later on, later on in, in, during my first marriage, that that did not end in, in, did not end well. Um, but more importantly, again, I wanna share, and I’ve got something else I wanna share that happened at the very end that you’re just not, it’s just, to me, it’s just something amazing about this story.

Speaker 1: (09:46)
But, um, I, um, was really just reliving this. And again, I felt like I was actually there, not thinking about it, not dreaming about it, but, but I was actually there. Which again, leads me to believe that this whole time thing that we perceive as time is just not, is just not right. I don’t, I don’t know if, if I try to explain this to my friends, they probably think I’m crazy. Um, you all listening and watching this now, um, maybe you’ll understand me a little bit more. Maybe you could even shed some light on this, because there, there’s something very, very powerful out powerful out there that we just as humans, we just haven’t really had a firm grip on yet. And I don’t know if we ever will. Um, but then I started thinking like, has my death already taken place? In other words, if my, if my theory is corrected, everything has already happened, but we’re just perceiving to be on a certain timeline somewhere at some point, then the answer is probably yes.

Speaker 1: (10:55)
I mean, everything has already taken place. I mean, everything is there. It’s just that where we see ourselves or where we feel ourselves on this timeline. Like right now, here I am, salt Lake City talking to you. This is where I am right now. But there could be another part of me as a 10 year old feeling the exact same thing right now, right now that I’m 10 years old, there’s a big snowstorm outside. I’m watching color TV on Mark’s color. I’m watching Batman on Mark’s color tv. I mean, this could also be happening right now, but I’m just, um, but I’m, I don’t even know how to say it, but I’m talking to you here now as a, um, as an older man, I don’t know, see, I can’t put into words. And, and I think like the higher spirits, whoever are in charge of us don’t want us to understand more than that.

Speaker 1: (11:48)
More than we do. But I think everything has already been done. It’s all, all a bit choreographed. It’s all taken place. That’s what I, that’s what, that’s the way I just feel, um, call me crazy. I don’t know. But, um, the session went on and again, I, I totally lost track of time and, um, I, I didn’t know how long I’d been there. I didn’t know. I, I, I, I couldn’t tell whether I’d been there 15 minutes or, or a day I could. I really couldn’t tell. And that was a really good thing. But then ultimately the lights came on and the sound from the speakers as like, your session is now, it’s a very beautiful female’s voice, much better than mine. Your session is now over. You can, you can get out and , I don’t know what she says, but then the lights come on and then it’s over.

Speaker 1: (12:31)
So after that, what, what I do, I I, I go into this other little room that’s attached to my suite and I take a shower. There’s heavy salt, I think Epson salt mainly, or heavy salt in this water that gets you to float. So you gotta rinse everything off. And I wash my hair and, you know, just getting cleaned up and everything’s great. And then I walk out into this, um, it’s like a lounge. And generally there’s nobody in the lounge. I, I use the lounge before and after my session to drink some tea and just for meditation and relaxation. Cause I don’t wanna get outta my session and then just walk out into the cold and, and walk home. Um, and I do walk. It’s, it’s about a 15 minute walk from my house. And I, I do walk. I don’t drive because I normally use some plant medicine to float in this sensory deprivation tank.

Speaker 1: (13:22)
So I don’t wanna drive, I don’t wanna endanger myself or anybody else. So I walk and it’s a pleasant walk, but before I get outside and walk, I usually sit in you for 15 to 30 minutes in this, um, little lounge area and just drink my tea and, and just kind of recap. And I, I’ll write in my little journal here, like, uh, you know, what I felt and things like that. This time when I walked into the lounge, there was a woman, and I’m guessing she probably was in her forties, and she had this energy that it’s really rare to experience in, um, in life. I mean, how can I say this? I mean, generally, because okay, before my session, I was sitting in the lounge and this other couple came in and they, they had just finished their session, you know, they were, they looked like a fine couple, a fine young couple, but there was no energy there whatsoever.

Speaker 1: (14:12)
They came in, they got a little bit of tea, they sat there for five minutes. They didn’t even look at me. Um, they didn’t talk to each other. They just, I just felt like very low, not negative energy, but just like no energy from them whatsoever. And I didn’t try to get into a conversation, you know, when, when you don’t feel the energy, you just don’t do it. But this woman, so I walked into the lounge, she was already there. She was sitting down, it looked like she just finished a session. She was there sitting, and she looked at me and she said, hello. And I don’t remember her exact words, but I felt like this, this magnetic field around her, like in a very positive way that she was just, um, exuded like very good positive energy. And we, we started talking and it was like, it was like we knew each other forever.

Speaker 1: (15:01)
It is not like we just met, her name was Kristen. And I felt something, I don’t know what I felt, I didn’t feel like love, like, uh, you know, um, but I felt, well, maybe I did. I, I don’t know how to explain it. But we talked for about 10 to 15 minutes. Again, it was like, we were, it was like we were old friends. It was like we had a connection. Then ultimately, she, she, um, said, I’ve gotta go. And she left. And, and, and I never would do anything like this, but we just looked at each other and we, like, we, we, we hugged, we embraced, we, is it okay if I hug you? And she said yes. And, um, there was nothing, nothing sexual about this. I mean, it just, it was, it was a connection that I felt was very strong.

Speaker 1: (15:53)
I don’t know if this came from my past. I don’t know if this had anything to do with my float session. I, I, I, I don’t know. I’m still trying to figure this out, but I, I felt like I would, this would not be the last time I saw her. And then I sat there for about, I don’t know, five or 10 minutes longer drinking my tea. And then I finally left. And that was, that was the session. And it was so powerful, so, so powerful. I just, I, I am truly looking forward to doing this again. Now, I will say this, that I was supposed to actually do a float with my wife. We were supposed to float together in the same, the same tank. And, um, last minute kind of, she woke up with a, um, she didn’t feel a hundred percent, she had like a little bit of a sore throat or something.

Speaker 1: (16:40)
She said she didn’t really wanna float. So had she been with me, would this session have been totally different? I don’t know the answer. I’m just throwing things out there. I’m thinking I just can’t stop thinking about this. But I don’t know, would that woman have been in the room if my wife and I came out and sat down to drink tea? I, I, I don’t know. But it’s, it’s like something really cool to think about and ponder it. Mainly a time, this thing about time and this thing about everything’s taking place. Like, could I go back to my 30 year old self right now? I think I could, would I want to? No, not really, but it’s there. It’s there for me to go to if I want to. So that’s what I wanted to share today. I’m sorry if it’s a little bit discombobulated.

Speaker 1: (17:27)
I just, um, I know it’s all over the place, but I just had these thoughts from my session that I just wanted to get out there. And, um, if any of you, if any of you have a, um, uh, uh, comments, I, I or, or theories or, or, or thoughts about this, I, I really want to hear from you about this because this is not over. I’m going back. I’m gonna be learning more about my past and, and going back into my past. This is like the, besides having a time machine sitting right in my room right here, this is like the best thing I could possibly have. It, it really is something that I found that’s, that’s very special. Anyway, that’s it for today. Thank you for being with me. Um, your, your greatest gift to me could be, would not, could be, but would be or is your greatest gift to me is a, just go to the, um, your platform here, wherever you’re, wherever you’re listening or watching.

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